Posted Fri Aug 14, 2009 2:38 PM
Been there! I had my old dog for 15 of her 16 years. It tore me apart to have to put her down in '05.
She was relatively healthy up to her last day but was suffering with "Doggie Dementia" or "Doggie Alzheimers". She would pace constantly 24/7, only sleeping when she literally passed out while walking in circles. She was also walking into corners, staring at it like a zombie and randomly passing out. It accelerated in the last week of her life. The biggest kicker was that she was like an attentive pup the day I brought her to get put down. I guess she died with dignity.
It KILLED me and I bawled like a 6 year old girl for days straight. It hasn't been the same in the 4 years since and I refuse to get another dog just yet and go through that again.
I know what you mean, this place seemed too silent and freezing cold when I got home without her. It stayed that way for months. Only after she died I realized how much time I spent with her. It was nearly 24/7. I work from home so she was always around sparing a scattered night on the town. The other day I was going through receipts that were unsorted and found the vet bill for the euthanization, her collar and leash. It was like ripping the scabs off a heart bypass patient.
It's going to hurt a long time and unless you get another pup one day that hole in your heart will always be there!
I'm so sorry to hear of this. Will throw in a vote!