A dark poem I wrote
This poem I wrote is about my experience in a kind-of-mental-hospital when I was in my early teens, thus beginning my "depression" and "need" to take drugs like Abilify. I was fortunately good enough not to go into the "padded room." I got more than just bread and water. I never have worn a straitjacket, I didn't hear voices in my head, either, but i did slit my wrists. Kind of silly now that I think about it. I mean, if I really wanted to die, I'd just take a whole bottle of tylenol with a jug of wine. Unfortunately, my mom doesn't like hard liquor, so hopefully wine would be strong enough to do the job. I might just write a poem describing my entire life, from the time when I was born up until the present. This would be stuck somewhere in the middle (right now at least.)
as i awaken from my slumber
i find myself in a padded room
the same one where i spent many nights before
and as i sit upon the floor
there is nothing I’d like more
than the pain to go away
i tried to commit suicide
and just because i haven’t died
they stick me here and throw away the key
just because they’ll never see
why it sucks to be me
those damn doctors are going to pay
so all you do is slap a jacket on
one with straps so i won’t be gone
death would sure be nice
but i cannot think twice
i need to think life will suffice
cuz that’s what “normal” people say
i get my daily bread and water
and the room is getting hotter
just because i want to die
i am such a last-class guy
and all i do is sit and sigh
every single fucking day
i am such a troubled teen
the worst case the doctors have ever seen
and when the day is done
and when to rest down goes the sun
i have finally begun
to sleep and sleep is so OK
dream of demons down in Hell
everything is going well
as i watch mr. doctor liar
burning in the lake of fire
my spirits are so higher
and in the dream i want to stay
but i am rustled from my sleep
by some stupid dumb nurse creep
it is time to go to therapy.
as i make my way down the hall
i hear the voices call
the voices in my head
say they want me dead
when i slit my wrists they bled
i did it just to keep the noise at bay
so i sit there on the couch
i start to gaze i start to slouch
my eyes glazed over i’m a grouch
and as they go across the room
one by one they speak of doom
they list the reasons why they’re here
with me in the room of fear
and as i shed a tear
i feel like the prey
when they finally come to me
i say i have suicidal tendencies
and i explain my case to them
telling all just what i am
and where my problems stem
and when i’m done i think hooray
and as the doctors ramble on
i wish that my life was gone
i don’t listen to a word
all their thoughts are so absurd
why do they treat me like a turd
wipe me off with a bidet
and as i go back to my bed
still wishing that i was dead
the floor beneath me it does creak
not a word do i speak
cuz my future’s looking bleak
i crawl onto my bed and lay
and as i look outside i see
all the “normal” people walking free
holding umbrellas for the rain
even though their lives are plain
i bet they have no pain
as the clouds are turning gray
i close my eyes and dream awhile
dream out of this place so vile
what good is keeping me here?
i wish the docs would make it clear
and my “sad” thoughts disappear
why must the rules of normalcy i obey?
there’s no hope of leaving this place
the frown will stay upon my face
why do they want me to suffer so?
i’d be happier if i got to go
doctors, what do they know
about the games we have to play?
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