Trying to figure out what I should do...
I'm not sure who will read this, but here goes...
I had left AA in October due to Real Life circumstances and a few other reasons (that I won't get into). I wanted to concentrate on my current career (in the IT dept of the Healthcare field) because there are quite a few things I have to learn. But I'm finding that I am not picking up things any faster by removing the 'distractions' that I thought were attributing to the hinderance of me learning this stuff. So, I'm starting to see less and less of the point of me leaving, and removing a hobby that is so dear to me.
Everyone has something in their life they were 'meant' to do; something that makes them feel like they are worth something. If you are lucky enough to be doing that for a 'living', your life is set. Most people, however, aren't able to do so.
I am blessed in the respect that I have *two* things that fall into that category; creating music and creating games. Unfortunately, I haven't been able to transform either of those hobbies into a 'career'... The problem now is I am finding (and this may sound corny) that there is something major missing in my life now since I've stopped creating games on the 7800. (I gave up on my music a few years ago after 25+ years of sending into radio stations, entering contests, speding too much money on TAXI, and even visiting record companies themselves).
The problem here is that if my current carer path ends up being too difficult for me, I am getting older now (43 ATM) to the point where it will only get *more* difficult to take on something new. I guess I'm babbling... anyway, just trying to think about things and how I will support myself for whatever is left of my life.
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