I'm so sorry frankodragon. I do hope you have other family members that can help you get through this tough time. I found also that spending some time in nature helped me when I lost my parents.
So sorry Frank... I lost mom at the end of May this year due to complications from a major stroke, lost dad in 2015. I guess I'm what you call an orphaned adult - do have my brother and stepdad to keep me sane. Sucks as we get older our folks do too