Back in January I gouged my left calf on an old ST Hard Drive Case I had sitting on a box.
I applied some hydrogen peroxide to clean it up and left it to dry out. A month later I
felt some pain there and when I looked at it, the skin had split open revealing some muscle
So I put some Neosporin on it, covered it with gauze and used some old medical
tape to keep it in place and replaced it every 2 days. I had noticed some redness under
the tape so I just rotated the position of the tape (bad choice), but the redness kept
repeating. Figuring the tapes adhesive went bad, I switched to cur-aid band aide tape.
The redness got worse and worse until it ended up reaching a 6 inch diameter circle of
infected skin. I contacted the Veterans Administration Hospital in March and was advised
to go to a urgent care facility in my home town. The Nurse Practitioner said I had a
cellulitis infection and prescribed some weak antibiotics which didn't do squat after 10 days.
Twenty days later I went to the VA Emergency Room because the redness had spread to the whole
lower leg having red bumps and the skin felt hard as leather.
This time the Doctor prescribed 2 kinds of stronger antibiotics which resulted in new scab
growing around one part of the original wound a week later, but that was all.
I ended up going back to the ER for 3 months getting the same diagnosis and more meds...
This left me feeling hopeless and I started having panic attacks thinking that if this doesn't
get any better that I would loose my leg due to this skin disease that the doctors couldn't
narrow down and treat properly.
Those panic attacks didn't go away and resulted in severe anxiety to the point that nothing
I tried would calm my mind down. Talking, trying to think of anything else or breathing
exercises didn't help.
I made an appointment at the VA 3 months ago at the mental health clinic, but they didn't
mail the meds until a week later, witch was too late as I had a breakdown a few days before
It's going to take awhile for full recovery, but I'm using magnesium to help calm the mind
during the day time and anti-anxiety meds to help in sleeping more than 2 hours at a time
at night and during the daytime as needed.
I just have to learn to not dwell on something like misplacing an object or a task being too
complicated to do at the moment as stupid stuff like that re-ignites the anxiety.
When the severe anxiety is triggered, it's really difficult to come out of without the help
of the anti-anxiety meds or magnesium.
I just hope I don't have to go trough this the rest of my life...
Over the past 2 months, I have been going to the wound care clinic, parts of my leg are healing
now, but if the worst area doesn't clear up soon, they'll start doing skin graphs...