djfurreh

You should really find someone other than this forum to talk to. Your status updates are a bit worrying. Take it easy and cherish the time that you have on this planet.

I do have others, this is just another straw to the bail

You should speak to your doctor about your suicidal tendencies. Therapy and\or meds might be in order to get you back to a healthier frame of mind. Problems are part time, death is forever. Don't forget that.